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Goodbye if it's not fun.

ASLYN - That's When I Love You
When u have to look away
When u don't have much to say
That's when I love u
I love u just that way
To here u stumble when u speak
Or see u walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love u endlessly
And when your mad cause u lost the game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love u I love u anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

So when u turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made u cry
That's when I love u
I love u
A little more each time
And when u cant quite match you clothes
Or when u laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love u
I love u
More then u know
And when u forgot that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love u
I love u anyway

So here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

Ohh that's when I love u when nothing baby
nothing u do could change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love
the more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u
when I love u no matter what
take that - patience
Just have a little patience
I'm still hurting from a love I lost
I'm feeling your frustration
Any minute all the pain will stop
Just hold me close inside your arms tonight
don't be too hard on my emotions

Cause I need time
My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while I'm still healing
Just try and have a little patience

I really wanna start over again
I know you wanna be my salvation
The one that I can always depend

I'll try to be strong
Believe me
I'm trying to move on
It's complicated but understand me

Cause I need time
My heart is numb has no feeling
So while I'm still healing
Just try and have a little patience
Have a little patience

Cause these scars run so deep
It's been hard
But I have to believe
Have a little patience
Have a little patience

Cause I, I just need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling
So while I'm still healing
just try, and have a little patience

Have a little patience
My heart is numb has no feeling
So while I'm still healing just try and have a little...
Patience
im losing tracks of my every buddies. drusilla melissa siying jialong ang farah peiwen and many more ... i seriously don't know how are you guys doing. no updates from you people and don't know what you guys have been doing. even if you guys don't miss me, I MISS YOU GUYS! and one more thing, when we do meet on the coming WED, pls do mind me if i start to feel a little out of the group cause i really really haven't been out with you guys for long though chalet just ended not long ago.

anyways, days of chinese new year have passed. had many red packets but the occasions were not as fun as before. just kind of feel everything is changing bit by bit. its part of growing up but i just don't like it. i prefer to be a kid! its better to know nothing than to know something.

as for work, i've been meeting loads of funny people. you have the fierce one, the kind ones, the cute ones, the funny ones, the unreasonable ones, etc. you name them, i've met them and i seriously don't like the fierce and unreasonable ones! i can't find any words to describe them. totally atrocious! been working and working and working, it's time for me to think to stop working or to work lesser or to find another job.

im going to work with a very down feeling for the past few days or i should say weeks. it really kills and pull your feelings way down when you think that going to work you have to see someone that you wish you had not have known him/her. furthermore, that him/her is always doing things that him/her know that you don't like it, yet he/she still does it. with all these feelings and thoughts, i wish to stop working and find another job. but is it worth it for just that one person? on the other hand, i don't really wish to leave cause there are really great bunch of people there and they are very nice and fun people.

to that him/her, im really stupid to have landed onto your well plotted plans. you have succeded and im stuck. you're just another good player. since, you're taking as if nothing has happened, im going to do the same. BUT I'LL BE CURSING AND SWEARING REAL BIG TIME BEHIND YOU. count me unlucky to be able to know you and lucky for you to be able to know me yea? if you happen to be reading this, let me tell you, you're just another bitch/bastard that i had met. get a life out there and be a better person. you're totally digusting. nevertheless i was a giving party too. so i'll not hate you, i'll just not like you.
There was a study done where a control group of 100 people were divided into two.

50 people watched a very funny, tears-of laughter type movie.
50 watched a very sad and tears of compassion type movie.

At the end of the sessions researchers collected the "happy tears" and the "sad tears" with eye droppers.

They found that "happy tears" are made up of brine...salt water and not a great deal else.

However the "sad tears" were found to contain the very same chemicals and enzymes that are found in tumors, ulcers and other such lumps and bumps and sicknesses through out the body.

This test concluded that the body, when crying in sadness etc is literally flushing out all of the toxic-chemicals that accumulate and are a part of the sadness / heartache experience.

Therefore if one holds back those tears, those toxic-waters will find somewhere else to deposit themselves... .and prolonged lack-of-crying-release will guarantee that the body will accumulate a huge amount of internal pollution and toxicity that should have been released through the tears........is it any wonder that the eyes sting so much when we hold back our tears?"

LESSON FROM THE STUDY: CRY YOUR HEART OUT WHEN YOU ARE SAD, LONELY, ALONE, DEPRESSED, ETC.....

IT IS GOOD FOR YOUR HEALTH!

anyway, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
you're there for them whenever they needed you. yet they are never there when you needed them. BUT you can't blame them for not being there for you because, it's your own will to be there for them when they needed someone. BUT as being someone close, shouldn't it be a normal gesture to be there too?

i just needed someone close to be there for me. i need not need a listening ear but at least can i have some companies to kill my sorrows? no, i don't. sometimes i just wonder where am i standing and who am i in the world. am i really asking too much? im just wondering are we really friends of friends who can understand each other well. i have wonderful friends, don't i my friends?

since then till now, my parents have always been right but i have never accpeted their logic and hope to change the fact to prove them wrong. i failed once more. thanks guys.

the above makes me sound scary but frankly speaking, it's everything i wish to say for years.

as for today, levin and jason, thanks for hearing me out. and im sorry to have cause the small little war between both of you.
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it well I'd still have felt it,
where's the sense in that
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were but

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble,
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over" then I'm sure that that makes sense but

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet, which I'm sure we will
All that was there, will be there still
I'll let it pass, and hold my tongue
And you will think, that I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be
replies!
SIYING - NOT A PROB MAN!
MR SEE - it happens for me too. but after clicking refresh, it will be okie. but who cares now, i've change my skin! =)) anyway, thanks! and im now working towards my next step. meantime, u take care! misses!
STANLEY - still considering =))

im dying now. i jsut hope things wouldn't have happened. i regret. totally.

while chainging my blogskin, i made a mistake by clicking the wrong button and all my links are gone! so peeps who i never link pls do leave me your linkies and it will be right up in place! sorry and thanks!

PHOTOS OF CHALET CLICK HERE (not all photos are in anyway)

I ENJOYED VERY MUCH DURING THE CHALET! thanks guys!

IM VERY VERY VERY VERY HAPPY FOR MYSELF AND SIYING! i got 18 for L1R4 and siying got 19! sooo happy and glad!! siying, well done to both of us la! ahhahah!

i've passed the first step, now its the next which is to choose the course. too many courses that i want and i cannot make up my mind. hell it man. before i forget, I WANT TO THANKS ALL SCHOOL TEACHERS AND MY TUTION TEACHER AND MY FRIENDS WHO WERE THERE FOR ME!

i know it's a very short post but still, in this short post, it means alot!

i, KELLYN was tortured on the first night of the chalet! and all thanks to PEARLYN CHUA, the molestor and MINGJUAN, the camerawoman. PS: though i look like im suffering and crying under the hands of pearlyn, but i was perfectly alright during the process. i was just laughing my heart out and strugging to be free from her.

replies to taggers; (sorry for the oh-so-late reply)
i have linked both jeline and adeline already.
weiping and mingjun, i dunno wad to reply.
and SANYO! i miss you too! see you tmw!

haven't been blogging for long and this is the first post for FEB!

date of release of O's is out, which is on the 9th.
FORTUNATELY, the chalet is before that, so i can have all the fun first before hell reaches my door step.

anyway, about my previous post saying that im getting my pay, for now i think my pay is going to be dried up. im starting to spend alot of money already. dead meat la.

many things have been happening for the past few days and i can't really figure out what's going on. i don't want to grow up cause growing up isn't fun. im getting to see more things which i wish i will not see them at all. life, aint fun. SUCK BIG TIME.

its chalet tmw and i don't care but play till mad!