Hello & welcome (:
Goodbye if it's not fun.

I'VE BECOME FATTER ALREADY!

dada.... i miss those days you come all the way down to my place and go jogging though i always whine and complain ):
I WANT THAT FIGURE OF MEGAN FOX.

HAHA!
CNY was greating but just aint great as the past few years.

last time right after visiting at my grand-aunt's place, uncles aunties cousions and family, we would head out to night drinking and enjoy the night life. super ultra fun and heart warming. but this year as CNY is held on weekdays and many of us have work/school TODAY, we didnt head out for drinking this year. VERY SIAN CAN?

and TODAY, i have test which i have mention before. and only TODAY i started studying it in the morning before i head to take the test at 1pm. i can't study becos i was feeling freaking tried and my nose was running as though running marathon. SO I THINK I WILL FAIL. YES I WILL. AND I THINK HAVE TO RETAKE THE STUPID USLESS MODULE WHICH IS NOT COUNTED INTO MY GPA. LIKE WHAT THE DUCK ? in secondary school, elective subjects are considered into the o'lvl result BUT FREAKIN IN POLY, THEY ARE EXTRAS YET YOU HAVE TO PASS THEM SO YOU DON'T HAVE TO RETAKE THEM! STUPID LIKE BLONDES RITE?

im left a week to datelines. im happy cos holidays are coming soon yet worried cos im left with v little time. SO MANY THINGS SO LITTLE TIME. darling's leaving for taiwan very soon. VERY VERY SOON.

2009, not very nice.
have the urge to hit the dancefloor.


yet it doesn't feel good enough only until when assignments are over den i'll start to feel the goodness of TGIF... i have 3 out of 7 assignments done though. it's a good and bad feeling. good that i have done 3, bad that i have 4 more to goooooo.... erggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh...........

currently my posts these days are gonna be alot of whining and cursing. so please forgive me or else, maybe you can come back during the holidays to see happier posts.

CNY is coming in less than 2 days! i have mixed feelings for it. damn happy that i get to do visitng and gather with all the relatives and of course enjoy the every cookies and such! but yet again right after the CNY holidays, I HAVE TEST TO TAKE! so i mus study during the visiting days. TELL ME HOW NICE MY LIFE CAN BE!!!!!!

right after CNY week, my dearest boyfriend is going to taiwan for 3 freaking weeks. by then i'll be free from assignments already but i don't have him around to enjoy the holidays more. but on better thoughts, i can work to earn my $$$$$

LIFE IS VERY NEGATIVE FOR ME THESE DAYSSSSSS!


i know this is v hao-lianing but i wan to show off my workpiece! haha! but again, the main thing here is for PEEPS OF SP to take note of the actual date. booth to buy tickets soon to be told here again cause not confirm yet. but now that i have told you the actual date, MAKE YOURSELF FREE, START SAVING AND BRING YOUR FRIENDS TOO! ATTRACTIVE PRIZES TO BE WON TOO!


you see, sometimes you really really know you have many people around you willing to lend a listening ear or be there when you need time. but just sometimes, you really really really feel you're all alone and feel very stress out and you don't know how to translate the stress to anyone else. you only just feel like being alone and unknowingly bottling up every burden in yourself. i hate this feeling. really hate. after hearing some stuffs from friends about a friend who thinks about me, i really feel i-don't-know-what's-that-feeling. can you imagine always in class there is this classmate of you always making you laugh, telling you jokes, teaching you the skills on how to work this software, how to do this homework, how to finish this project. but just POP, some stuffs happen and both of you are not talking anymore. when he is with one classmate, you can't be there too cause it will feel awkward. only after he leaves then you can start talking to that classmate and this becomes that the classmate becomes the middleman. you don't dare to get near to him, you don't dare to look into his eyes. you feel sad, yet at the same time angry because he says stuffs about you, the bad points. you hate him and you hate yourself more too. bet you have friends who don't always attend school because they don't have friends or because they don't like school and think it's a waste of time. so now i feel like them. very much like them but yet like i say before i can't afford to back out just like that when i've left a year or even lesser to complete this diploma. sometimes i really wonder how to hardcore clubbers can enjoy their night so much yet get on the life in studying. like freaks la! they have money yet also have the energy to club all night long! LIKE WHAT THE HELL LA. i complain i whine im just a freaking bitch.

my bad instincts are here again. please don't come true.


and oh ya ya, had dinner with peipei and mel at jap at hg mall! yet another simple yet enjoyable nite with girlfriends! but now back to so many things to do, so little time.......
on summary,
wonderful weekends again, not awesomely good too though.

friday was spent with MSPP at marina cafe cartel and drinking nite along esplanade bay with alvin isaac and sanyo coming along. and during skool, it was damn fun. we were tot on how to makeup for filming like have cuts, brusies, or any other facial effects needed in films. very very fun and cool and real!

saturday was spent with darling coming over to my place and later in the evening heading to penghui's (darling's sec skool fren) 21st birthday bash! loads of laughter with the many jokers in them too! sadly i cannot stay over nite if not could be more fun!

sunday, was like that.

monday, no calls from darling and only a msg saying he's goin out for field camp which i totally forgotten... so no nite calls from him. i think by tonite i'll get him or else it'll be tmw. ): but anyways, monday blues was only kicked away in the evening when my classmates played his dvd of BOLT. i like the movie, DAMN GOOD 3D EFFECTS AND ANIMATIONS. another incredible tales alike movie. if only, i can do such movies loooooooo.........

as of today, gonna be shootings and assignment rush.
same goes to the rest of the days! only until like 6 of feb, i'll be much free-er.

and ya, CNY IS COMING. but no mooood leeeeeeeeeei...

ps: pics of MSPP and Peng's party are in facebook
im cant explain how much it feels but i find it harder and harder to get to school.

I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL!
I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE THIS!

i wanna thank bavani and gang, hermi, pat and khaz for accompanying me when i need companies.
80 % tells me that i can pass my test today!
hopefully my instincts are very right!

after all the stupid hell i got since monday, i went shopping with patrina today! finally made up my mind on getting monthly or daily contact lenses. right now, i can only afford for monthly so i got them (: on top of that i bought 1 top and 3 bottoms from cotton on. total cost $50! i find them reasonable. now looking for just one more online dress.. still looking hard before CNY comes!

today's shopping was greatly spent with patrina! THANKS ALOT BABE FOR MAKING TIME FOR ME AND LAUGH LIKE SIAO CHAR BO TOGETHER (: LOVE LOVE MANY MANY!

i feel much better today and only today. darling's sick in camp and i cant do anything ):
i hate assignments not becos it's assignment but it's becos you have to find group members to work with. not just any group members but group members who are willing to work with you and are willing to work and doesn't hate you.

am i unreasonable, naggy, selfish, not hardworking, skill-less, lousy and many other things that i can't find a group that i can work well with? im hating classes alot more. everything else is fine, only this grouping thing is making me very very very pain and hate school alot alot alot... am i seriously in the rite course rite now? i very much wanna quit but on the account that im left with a year more, it's very wasted! so is it that i have to bite thru my way to get my diploma?

you know when you're being pushed from group to group, it means you're useless, you're a burden, YOU ARE NOTHING. no one will put you on their list. maybe only those groups who are nicer, will try and accept you into the group. everyone only thinks for themselves and only think of getting good grades. the hell they'll fucking care about your useless presence.

that's what they call it life and being realistic eh?
very realistic and "kind" world we leave in eh?
very nice eh?

but yet again, i cant blame anyone but myself for being useless, very useless. sooner or later or even rite now, i find myself with the group of losers.

HEY! KELLYN IS A LOSER YOU KNOW ?
A DAMN BIG ONE!

how has it been for your first day at school?

no difference for me. the usual faces. the usual lessons. but there's one thing unusual. imhvaing a test on wednesday and im not studying!!!!!!! actually it is quite usual for such case. HAHA! anyway it's jus that after having no test for so long and now you want me to study???? CANNOT MAKE IT LAAAAAAAAAA! it will be a 10 MCQs + 3 written questions. SAY GOOD LUCK TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEE PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEE!

my weeks are gonna get busy soooooon. gonna do all the work and relax even before the holiday comes!!!! BITTER FIRST, SWEET LATER!

i've changed my FYP group again. this time the feeling is good and feel less stress. no more overseas, no more spending big money!! i think so... but all in all, i feel alot better after changing groups. YEEEPEEEEEEEEE!

before coming here, i had many things to say, but i forgot them already.

oh ya, one thing i can remember, little nyonya ending was kinda baddddddddddddd.
just right at this moment, i thought of one resloution for 2009.

when i have done it and can do it, then i'll proudly say it.
for now, it's for me to blog and remind myself, not to spike curiousity to your little minds although i think i did.

and yes, i had great fun of steamboat at chalk's place. this is the first time i spend my countdown with a new group of friends and of course with darling too (: many thanks to CHALK for organizing it and that we had fun eating and some of them kinda got high at the end too.

kinda weird to see 2009 appearing on date now.
toking about generalising, im 19 already.

suck balls!