Hello & welcome (:
Goodbye if it's not fun.

this post is gonna be quick and fast, gotta wake up early tomorrow for work ): so here is the start of the post: I HAVE CRAVINGS FOR JAPANESE FOOD AND PIZZA WITH THICK THICK CRUST AND MANY MANY TOPPINGS. damn, i have this cravings since like starting of this month? any nice souls willing to treat me or accompany me go? hehehhehehehehhe (:


oh well, i was too bored so i took a picture of him while we're on the way to white sands in his father's van. this week, he booked out late on sat and booked in today already. so little time man. he said next week could be the same too. but like i told him, on the brighter side, after next week it will be his POP already and i could have him for a week without him having to book in and out before he gets posted to his unit! weeeeee ~



this pic above was something i did at his palce to make myself happy although i arranged his name wrongly and there was only 1 letter "J". hahaha! i did another one which says " YANG JI JIN IS DUMB KELLYN IS CLEVER". but before i can complete, that ass destory the whole thing and started keeping them away. MEANIE!

there are like more than 101 things i have in mind that i wish to say it out, but whenever i have the chance, my mouth keeps shut. i just don't understand what the hell is wrong with me sometimes. when every thing gets bottled up, it will burst one day and the outcome won't be pleasant. just very soon, i'll learn to release everything and life would be better for me.

factors are adding up and im feeling all the pressure. yet i can't afford to lose this love cause i see more to it. darling, please be there whatever that happens and could happen, will ya?
just tell me how cool is his work here
what is good friends to you?
i dunno but i feel sad and feelings of which i don't know what exact words to use.
you might not take it seriously, but i really take it to mind, alot.

i haven been working for long, and today is only the 3rd day of work, my legs are already aching due to long standing hours. damn weak. and because i made a little mistake yesterday, i've lost my runner position at the resturant ): back being a waitress, taking orders and clearing the unwanted plates. work today is super ultra moody. i left house feeling all okie but when i reached workplace, whole mood went all down esp seeing manager and chef kinda chatted unhappily with each other (partly because of my mistake done) then, i kept having loads of things running thru my mind while working. thinking this, thinking that. lucky didn't make any mistake at orders, else i'll get more naggings when already my manager and supervisor kept telling me not to make mistakes before opreation hours. oh well, guess my moody-ness is most probably due to not enough sleep as i came home late last nite.

AWESOME NIGHT LA YESTERDAY!

as usual, i had work first, then i met up with TSY in town after. she got a pair of shoes. i've got a pair too and a new sling bag. when i get my pay i soooooooooooooooo gonna get a backpack, either from fareast or hereen. we walked till our legs got sore and we went to fishnco to wait for the group to come. and we celebrated mingjun's and alvin's birthday! all i can say we had awesome fun at fishnco, den to the legends even though for awhile, den some of us met up with pearlyn at hg mall to have a little night chat. JUS ALL COOL AND GOOD CAUSE ITS GROUPIE (:

i'll cut things short and pictures talk.





fri got to see darling! went his place see him play his PS3 den dinner met up with his frens. and sat was all slacking at darling's house. literally slack BUT I NOT HAPPY CAUSE YOU KEEP PLAYING WITH YOUR PS3! guys just love a non-living thing more than a living thing la! SADDED KNOW!

and ah, seriously ah, i really regret not buying a MAC-book since i got into poly. im simply really dumb la. now almost all my modules involves with MAC MAC and MAC.

SO WHY I NEVER GOT MAC IN THE FIRST PLACE ?
two reasons.
1: i didnt like the concept of MAC software
2: i didnt noe what my course is all about.

all in all, IM DUMB LA ): now im kinda tempted to get a MAC PRO but yet again, money is the factor that stops me. money is what everybody love but it's also what everybody hates. another factor is also, i have all my software downloaded into my present laptop. so if i get a new laptop, i have to go through the whole trouble of dl-ing the softwares again. BUT I STILL WANT MAC LA LA LALALALALALALAAAAAAAAAAAAA. any sugar daddies here? HAHA!

oh well, it has been winter in singapore for the past few days. haa! keeps raining, then always after bath, it feels v cold esp in the morning. but such weather super ultra nice to sleep la.

sadly, couldn't enjoy the morning coolness sleep today. was back to work! everyone was nice, welcoming me back and asking how have i been. bosses were nice too. guess i made the right choice to not go back vivo but to work at fareast. everything is not as sucky as i tot la. and 1st day back at work, i was put as runner which i have not done it before. being runner time passes super fast and fun. hoepfully i can be runner everyday until i sian. hehehehhehe. (*runner = just serving food from kitchen to customers)

and after work, i got home den went out again to have my hair cut. YES MY HAIR CUT SHORT SHORT AGAIN. really bo bian, i have to cut. i had rebornded hair mixed with my damn curly hair and everything is going crazy and i look like lion. so mus trim/cut. guess only when i turned 21 then i can really have at least a shoulder length hair style ): thanks to my stupid brain when i was 16 years old.

no calls for today and tomorrow i think. soldier yang in another 2days fieldcamp. sian.
going to zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz for it's another morning to go for work and at night to see some of GROUPIE!
did i mention DARLING'S OUT FROM JUNGLE ALREADY? cant wait for him to booky out!

as for the past few days i have been home in the day AND MUMMY IS THE BEST!
she has been waking up earlier than she will every morning to cook lunch for me!
and last nite i said i wanted to this particular dish and just this morning i got up and see that dish on the stove waiting for me! ISNT MUMMY JUS SO NICE ? VERY NICE!

i've been home the whole day today DOING MEANINGFUL THINGS, like finally. i help my mother to iron her pants/jeans, mop the house, pack my room, hang up my just-washed-bedsheets. i fell all good. my room clean clean and smell good good! (:

but my whole body aching. i went swimming with patrina yesterday at the new swimming complex located at anchorval CC (sengkang area). that woman behaves really like a little girl when we were swimming and playing la. I JUS LOVE HER COMPANY! thanks patrina! more to come ya?
anyway, the swimming complex is the ultra mini version of the jurong swimming complex. it has an indoor medium pool which has super coooooold water when u swim in it. then, it has 3 ranges of slides, the ultra scary ones, the not bad ones, and the super-for-kids type. it has a playground baby pool (adults cannot enter at all unless u're looking after your kids) and finally the big pool which is partially shelthered. the whole place is not bad la. 1.50 bucks/entery. i would say worth visiting it.

GIRLFRIENDS, can we make it there sometime together?

and i have decided to suck my thumb and get my ass back to that old workplace of mine, the one i've got since o's have ended till now. i've concluded that im actually finding job to kill time during the vacation, so i should not be so fussy and get back to that place. rather lazy and tired to look for jobs too. (YES YES YES, im simply just a pig who wishes for good life)

oh well, onto an off topic, have you ever suddenly think of that very day when your parents die? when thinking how sweet my mother has been for the past few days, i suddenly thought, what will happen to that very day when she leaves this world. i think i will cry like hell, desprately thinking of what she has done for me since i was born, desprately would want her to come back alive and be my mother ): my daddy too. although he is the most unreasonable dad i have ever seen, he still loves me best and does everything for my own good. so again, what will i do when he leaves this world? i'll really really miss both of their naggings even they are a nusiance.

how about you? what will happen to you when your parents leaves this world, the two best humans who have raised you since you were born?
so so so so so i realised my past few post have been very boring but i don't care cause i think im really experiencing lovesick. the last time i chatted with jin was on friday and it was sms, not on phone. and NOW, i have to wait until he gets back to his hp on thurs or fri, im not very sure. AND I MISS HIM AND HIS VOICE ):

now even im having my holidays, they are still boring.
im lazy to get my ass back to work esp at a workplace which kinda sucks right now.
next, everyone else is busy with exam week.
next next, darling is not present either.
next next next, I HAVE NO MONEY TO SPENT THIS HOLIDAY.
HOW SAD YOU TELL ME ?
VERY SAD!

anyways, finally met up with TSY on sat. met up with sanyo, alvin pearlyn drusi and jialong too. then goh mama treated us JACK's PLACE! THANK YOU GOH MAMA!


after dinner, sanyo sy alvin and myself went to get andy and we had some car ride along thomson road. and i tell you, something ducking hell funny happened la! peeps in the car should get what i mean la. those who don't know, i'll tell you if you ask. i lazy type. HEHHEHEH! thanks sanyo once again for the night rides that are awesome esp all the little chats we had.

as for today (before 12am), the goh papa invited us (alvin, pearlyn, drusi and myself) to the 7th month dinner and it's my first time having this type of dinner, i swear. i neva been to one before. and i finally experience those kind of stage auction. very noisy but at the same time very exciting. waiting at the very end to see who actually wins the auction. but seeing goh papa spending so much in one night, i heart pain. hahahha! all those money i can use to buy my clothing! HAHAH! but all in all, sanyo and jialong, please help me thank your papa cause i really enjoyed my dinner. i enjoyed all of your companies and seeing your cute father! HAHAH!

den on national day (yes i bringing back to last week), i actually missed the fireworks for the first time out of every year. every year, i'll head to my aunt's place to catch the whole parade on television of course, den will watch the fireworks from her window. but this year, it's different, i spent it at punggol park BBQ-ing with darling's frens! it was to celebrate his bday as well as 2 other august babies.


life seems rather meaningless these days. why do i really want in life?
all i can think is money and fun.
dream on girl.
after three cycles of blood test (and that means i was freaking poked by the needles 3 times in 3 consecutive days), i pronouce im dengue-free. and all i have been having was some stupid virus that i don't know what it is and doctor didnt tell me too. after all the sufferings i have been through for the past few days, im still deprieved from hardcore sports for a month. that means, my idea of swimming has gone down the drain. ): doctor says i have to stay home a month for my body to build up everything that has lost during the past few days.

sian sian and double sian!

The Man Who Can't Be Moved by The Script, go listen it up. Very nice song. LINK HERE!

and oh yes, did i mention im officially on holiday already?!?!??!?! yes i am!

until today, they still object. i feel the pressure, i feel the guilt and i feel like crying more. tell me what's love, what's all about love that i could have missed out understanding it like the "experienced adults" know of.

is it something that you won't care what others say, even if what they say might be true? is it something that what adults always say that we youngsters don't know what's love? (but hello? im kinda in the young adult age already, aint it?) is it something that you shouldn't be blind in it whereby there's a pharse called love is blind? is it something that you cherish you have each other now and the future will be done later? is it something that will last long?

i know they love me and couldn't bear to have me getting hurt in any relationship. but just sometimes they are being just too tight.
when can they start to accept?
and darling, can you be confident to win them over?
im sorry darling...

all this feelings are really stressful. i really don't know what is the real meaning of love you know. i guess love has no meaning but only has meaning when you create your own meaning.

and yea, im going for blood test tmw, wish me well. thanks
had fever since wed till today. fever still stays but at a lower temperature, low enough for me to use the com and finish my assignments that has been put on paused ever since i got sick. was very worried at first cause i scared i might get dengue fever. the reason why i think i could have dengue is because i went to kampong to do my filming production and was bitten by many dengue mosquitoes. the moment you see the mosquitoes, you already can see the black and white strips that are very very obvious. ever have like 4 to 5 mosquitoes landing on your leg and sucking the sweet blood of yours? i experienced it la! and that give me goooooooooosebumps that i keep jumping around with the mic in my hand and was having trouble concentrating with my camera-man when shooting.

wed see doctor, she says that i go home and rest and see how things goes.
today i went back to doctor, he added that i jus gotten throat infections. as for the rashes that suddenly appear should be harmless. if should it appear more, i have to proceed for blood test already. damn it with all kind of viruses in this world. it sucks. im gonna be healthy man.

FOLKS OUT THERE PLEASE TAKE CARE AND DRINKS HELL LOADS OF WATER WATER AND STILL WATER!

i have nothing else to blog already but one last thing is that darling has another 2 weeks confinement and during the 2 weeks there will be a 6 days field camp trip where he will bathe with mud, sleep with insects, pee and shit for the plants growth and fight till he kills all his enemies.

PLUS HE CAN'T CALL ME LIKE HE DOES EVERY NIGHT,
AND I CAN ONLY SEE HIM THE WEEK AFTER THE COMING ONE ):
things that must (hopfeully) happen when holiday comes:
1. to meet faraheenyau and groupie
2. work
3. swim
4. BTT and FTT
5. practical (if possible)

darling got back on sat late morning.
but i didn't get to see him only until sun afternoon ):
all thanks to my shooting assignments. damn them.

anyways, yet again, i enjoyed my weekend with him!
he came over to my house and we took a super long nap till evening. afterwhich we headed down to fernvale (at sengkang) and had our dinner. cheezy chicken chop that is and its goody good cause its cheeze! its just as shiok as eating cheese fries. hehehehehhehe!

the wonderful company of darling then ended when it's time to go home. ): and i really hate it cause every time that we part, i would weep like an idiot ass. its almost coming to a month that darling has been into NS. but i have not got used to it. very often, i would cry to sleep. i don't know why but i just do. i really really miss the everyday smses i get from him when i go to skool, when im in skool, and when im on the way home from skool. and in the nite, i get to see him online and i can chat with him until we both have to go to bed. now everything changes. i can only wait for his call between 2130 to 2230 and can only wait for him impatiently when he comes back on the weekend.

oh well, i guess many of you will say that i should be glad that i still have him and stop being such a crybaby. yes im a crybaby and im glad, or rather extremely glad that i have him. but it's just that i have not get used to not having him everyday when i had him everyday in the past.

you know what i like?
i like that moment when you peck me on my forehead (:
i love my soldier boy!