Hello & welcome (:
Goodbye if it's not fun.

I CAN DUCKING SERIOUSLY CLAIM THAT

HUMANS (that includes me) ARE

SERIOUSLY CHILDISH.

YES, THE WORD IS CHILDISH!

i told myself not to be loser and not to blog such loser post. but i seriously cannot take it and wants to be a loser and post. KELLYN IS A LOSER AND WADEVA YOU WANNA CALL ME.

this isn't gonna be a pleasant post to anyone and everyone. you can curse and swear about me after reading. you can call me two-headed monster and a ducking freak and wadeva you wan to call me la. and if you really do so, i can suggest that you guys either leave with it or just bloody duck out of my life and of course duck off from here AND STOP FRIENDING ME LIKE HOW THOSE KIDS TELL EACH OTHER " I DON'T FRIEND YOU LIAO".

so now here the post goes...

me, wee kellyn hated club alot since FO
and has neva liked being in MC.
but i was choosen and i agreed (which i regret).
since i've been choosen, i've gotta live with it.
live with it with my job well doned.
i was choosen so i needa do my job up to standard.
i still curse and swear whenever i have to do my job
which i totally wish i did not have this job in the first place.
but, i still have to do.
with so much pressure,
i needa most was support,
encouragements and many more in making me quickly finish my job
but sadly, i got comments that says, "kellyn has changed".

im like damn happy that i hear such things or rather like not at all happy?
so much of a support eh?

if that has ran through your mind before or something quite similar, i can tell you that you have not know me well. or maybe it could be my bad on my part for being such a hypocrite.

i realised i talk until damn exaggerating in the early part of my post. but its really jus damn saddening and disappointing. really, very much.

all the world's a stage and all the Men and Women merely actors.
im the actors, are you too? im sure, it's a yes.
SUPER ULTRA HAPPY WITH MEET UPS WITH GIRLFRIENDS.
melissa lim and farah yau, we owe each other alot of dates ):

anyways, i'll alow pictures to tell the story of how much fun we had.


and pei pei! im sorry to bully you! really sorry.. ):

above of all the fun, im also happy that i finally got the kind of jacket-aka-hoodie that i always am looking for! and it costs 20 bucks only whereby the rest i see are 40 or 50 bucks and above. DAMN HAPPY (: i also spent another 60 bucks on a shirt and belt. sinful sinful day, but i guess im happy. and so, i cant buy any other things for another few months already...

the idea of me being fat is back again. and i feel very sad.
my tummy is cute, but i hate it.
my hair is cute, but i hate it.
(ignore the cute, cause its kinda used to make me feel better even though i hate them. HAA, joke, BLAH.)

this makes me feel better too:
Being genuine is ten times better than being perfect,
and perfect people are nothing but fakes.
You should be feeling good about who you are.

easier said then done eh?



and guess what! i watched "Cinderella 3 - A Twist In Time" last night. don't laugh at me for being kiddo cause afterall, it's still a movie like how you watched kungfu panda! =P by looking the the title again, you'll get the rough idea of what Cinderella 3 is about already. anyways, i said i watched it is becos i wanna say i super like the mice in the movie. and its GUS GUS the fat little mouse and JAQUES the smart skinny mouse!



that's all i wanna say. hehehehe!
meeting the girls FINALLY later in the evening. HOW COOL? VERY COOL!
lastly, i love the way you hug me tight (:
everybody's doing this quiz and so im going with the trend and since, jialong requested so! (:

Name 20 people you can think of right now. Don't read the questions until you name them. At the end of this, choose 5 people to do this. Have FUN!

1. Jijin
2. Siying
3. Drusilla
4. Melissa
5. Pearlyn
6. Farah
7. Peiwen
8. Weiting
9. Stephanie
10. Jialong
11. Alvin
12. Sanyo
13. Eye Candy
14. Eye Candy 2
15. Bavani
16. Grace
17. Joycelyn
18. Patrina
19. Fang Qing
20. Mingjun


A.) How did you meet 14? (Eye Candy 2)
Friendster then msn.

B.) What would i do if i never met 1? (Jijin)
I would find another. HAHHA!

C.) What if 9 & 20 dated? (Stephanie & Mingjun)
it will be world's biggest joke, no offence though =D

D.) How about 6 & 17? (Farah & Jocelyn)
They don't know each other, even so, they are not lesbians.

E.) Describe 3. (Drusilla)
HAA! we all know her well. but still one of the every listening ears that would be there for me (:

F.) Is 8 Attractive? (Weiting)
OH YES! one sweetie pie too

G.) Describe 7. (Peiwen)
Skinny like bamboo and has super coooooold jokes

H.) Do you know any of 12's family members? (Sanyo)
of course. his brother, jialong. the rest, i just know it's them.

I.) What would you do if 18 confessed that he/she likes you? (Patrina)
I don't mind being lesbian, besides i've seen the awful side of her. HAHA!

J.) What language does 15 speak? (Bavani)
english, tamil and sometimes her own created languages. HAA!

K.) Who is 9 going out with? (Stephanie)
chow chow monster

L.) How old is 16? (Grace)
SAME AS ME!

M.) When is the last time you spoke to 13? (Eye Candy)
i can only admire him from far. don't know his name neither his course ): HAA!

N.)What's 2's favourite band/singer? (Siying)
eh, for that i don't know eh. haa!

O.) Would you ever date 4? (Melissa)
if im a guy, i would if she's super gentle. =P

P.) Would you ever date 1? (Jijin)
(:

Q.) Is 19 single? (Fangqing)
yes but she loves me

R.) What is 10's last name? (Jialong)
Goh

S.) Would you ever date 11? (Alvin)
YES!

T.) What is 3's School? (Drusilla)
TP

U.) Where does 16 live? (Grace)
Damn near to skool

V.) What is 5's favourite thing? (Pearlyn)
webcam. haa!

W.) Have you seen 2 naked? (Siying)
no but i can picture her all being green.

and so, i dunno who to choose now. BUT, whoever wishes to do go ahead AND mus tell me that you did it SO i can read!

BOYFRIEND IS ON THE PLANE REACHING

SINGAPORE SOON!
i don't know if it's becos im having my period or what, but im feeling very tensed and i feel like blowing up! very very uncomfortable feeling here and there. i really need dada, so i can whine and complain ): TWO MORE DAYS TILL HE GETS BACK. i don't know how can i adapt when he gets into army, which is in SEVENTEEN more days. i have him for like 2weeks & 3days or lesser if i exclude those days when we can't meet ): tell me how? things wouldn't be that bad right? i hope so..

right now, what's adding on to my frustration is my 3D assignment. i'm super demoralised especially seeing my other classmates' works. theirs are like hell god damn good work whereas mine is like NOOB. yes, the word is NOOB. at that moment when i see their work, i thought to myself, am i in the right course or am i not putting the fucking effort to get to that standard? im giving myself too much excuses that i'm way too lazy now. KELLYN DIE LA ):

to make this post more positive, i got a B for my another 3D assignment which i thought i would got worst. i felt better, but yet again, kinda easily contented which is no good.

and yes, i wanna intro my new webcam fren called PEARLYN CHUA. she was a damn loser when she first used the webcamy but later on, things got on good and now i guess she is a professional already. HAHAH! i prasied you lei PEILING =P don't forget my torch ah. HAHAHHA!

when you're a young child, you wish to grow up quickly.
when you're an adult already, you wish to turn back time.
life's all about going back and forth,
reminiscing the past and moving towards the future.
but i would prefer staying in the past where life's all good.
how about you?

the meaning of the following phrase could already have lost its meaning,
but i still wanna tell you girls, i miss you all.
finally i got to go swimming! an half an hour swimming which consist of 20 laps with boyfriend (: purpose of todays workout is of course to work out and to get darker. but apparently, im jus 10% darker. i need another 90%! i want to be minah! haa!

as for dinner, met up with sanyo, alvin, jialong, drusilla and pearlyn. DAMN FUN MEETING UP LA! we were like keep talking about serangoon secondary times la. thinking back, we were really damn childish, not just childish, but fking childish. I WANT TO GO BACK BACK BACK THEN ): i even miss hiding from tina and rafi, skipping lessons, arguing back with teachers, etc. ):

anyways now, boyfriend is waiting to leave house to airport. he's leaving to HK for 5 days. 5 freaking days. how great.
caught two movies at one go with boyfriend!

first was DON'T MESS WITH THE ZOHAN.
frankly speaking, was kinda disappointed. i didn't know what was i really expecting but the whole movie didn't meet my expectations. funny movie but overly sexually-rated and over exaggerated. 6 or 7 out of 10 which of course, is based on my views. how about yours?

the next show was GET SMART.
which is a damn smart movie. haha! 8 or 9 out of 10. what surprises me most is that ANNE HATHAWAY has blossom in this movie after her other movies of being the gentle sweetie pie princess. she's like the next angelina jolie? you watch her in this movie, you'll be wondering if she's the ANNE HATHAWAY that you've seen in movie, PRINCESS DIARIES. haiya, go watch GET SMART and you'll know how hot she is that im talking about. REAL HOT!

as for the rest of this post, i have loads of things to share and loads of pics to share BUT I DAMN LAZY CAN!

hehehhehehhehehhehe.... tata!

btw, ladies, let's go out someday but only when you all really mean it that we're going out. not just by saying alrite?

thanks and love, kellyn

REPLIES TO TAGGERS!

SY - yes no more song cause u said it was irritating! see i so good gal, i listen you!

PAT - NO MORE FIRST POST. so dun KNS already. HAHA!

FQ - nothing to talk about lei! hahahah! maybe jus credit tat u willing to take me as your darling! =P

HERMI - HHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERMIIIIIII, you're linked

PEARLYN - update liao leiiiiiiiii =P

FARAH - sayang, guess those could only be wonderful memories that we won't forget! (:

my blog's not dead, it was just on vacation like i am. hehhehhee!

this i my third week of vacation and also my last! skool starts next week!
GOOD LUCK FOR OTHER SP PEEPS WHO ARE TAKING THEIR EXAMS WHEN SKOOL STARTS (:

for the first week of my vacation, i TRIED to do up my 3D modelling assignment. i tried tried tried until the weekends (i tried with no effort that is).

so it dragged till monday of the second week when it was the dateline. and THANKS TO VEESHENG WHO HELPED ME TOTALLY, as in really totally. so its kind of his work and not mine. but still a million thanks for the helping hand dude (: then again, no kiss or hug for you. haa! anyway, i handed my assignment and slacked throughout the whole of second week. but on thursday, i caught the movie "THE INCREDIBLE HULK". i would give 9/10 and 1/10 goes to that the fighting actions are way too fast for me to see the moves. HAHAH! but totally awesome!
then, goes onto SATURDAY, it was a hell long day for me. i was the bridesmaid for my cousin. i can tell you, bridesmaids are pretty but the job they do, fucking shit job. but anyway, a good experience for me in addition of sore legs and low ang pao money (not that im too greedy but i really think its seriously low.)

now for the third week! i started of well with my meeting boyfriend for movie, "KUNG FU PANDA". DAMN FUCKING FUNNY! 10/10 for me for the rating for the movie. now joke, really. GO CATCH IT! as for the remaining days, it should be plans for the start of my group's shooting. i think only our group have not start but the prob is that we can't find location and actors. FUCKING LAND AUTHOURITY IS HEARTLESS. (i might get sued soon but i really wanna complain!) we are students, I REPEART STUDENTS! yet they still want us to pay like a more than a 100 bucks for borrowing their land for shooting! I MEAN WTH? we are students who have no money to pay all this fucking shit. fuck land authourity and two fucks to the government! damn.

oh well, those damn shits are killing. i just wanna go back serangoon secondary school days as well as those mugging days at hougang green. my dear groupies, you guys should know what i mean. nehneh's malay food, chinese uncle's chicken rice and uncle johnny's drink stall at 4eb, ec & ed canteen table.




darling, you told me i was the best that you ever had.
but sadly, i wasn't at my best to make you want me more than that.

anyways, like i told you, you're my best that i ever had too.


soon after i post the previous post, friendster gave me this horoscope.

"Just because an argument is over doesn't mean that your lingering feelings of guilt, regret or anger are gone. You can't expect everything to get right back to being rosy, right away -- you need time to let things settle inside of you for a while. When you are both ready to resume your regularly scheduled activities, you can. But if you try to push too hard to make things 'normal' again, you will only be creating unrealistic expectations. The love is still there, don't worry. "

so tell me, what should i do?
i just wanna bring back april 2007.
seeing couples who have been together for over 3 to 4 years breaking up really makes me wonder what love really is.

the elderly often tell us youngster, "it's still early to go steady. you should enjoy your singlehood before you start to go steady."

i can't help disagreeing with them but on the other hand, i can't lie to myself that they are wrong, cause, they seem to always hit the bull's eye.

from the day we patched till today, im always thinking if i had made the right choice in holding things back. everyone tells me that i have more to see than to tied myself to someone. dad told me im blindly in love. i told myself im not and i know everything. but soon, i realised in actual fact, i know nothing at all.

dada is leaving for army in july which is like in less than one month's time. i can't but to start imaging those negative things. im just so confused now if he's my obession or he's the one i am really looking for. am i holding him becos i really love him and want him or im just purely holding him becos im too used to having him? i realised that when you think honeymoon has just started, next, you'll find yourself being hurt even more. am i happy or not if u should ask. the answer? yes, i am happy but at the same time, i am afraid of losing him and i am afraid of getting hurt.

should i stay on and let time tell the story? or should i end it now? if it really ends now, we'll not talk to each other anymore and i don't like it.

darling, i don't know if you would read this or not. but in anyways if you were to read it one day, be it if we're still together or not, i just wanna tell you i really do love you and happy that i am/was yours for this once in my life, i really am.