Hello & welcome (:
Goodbye if it's not fun.

I LOVE THESE 2 (below) MOST!





anyways yet again, father's not toking to me. don't ask me why. the whole situation it's just i think im rite, he's wrong and he thinks he's rite, im wrong. FUCKING HELL IDIOTIC. i really try my very best to be the angelic. i really really try. and somehow somewhat i can neva be the one he loves as much as brother. when im wrong i always try to shut my mouth and not answer back. but one has it's limits. i always have to be the one admitting fault when im not at the fucking wrong! LIKE FUCK ? i really feel akward being home now. it's as though mum gives up on me, dad disappointed with me, brother cant be bothered. i noe i should be grateful to have parents and a brother but hell do i enjoy when im always the one who seems to be always against them? they neva once told me they were proud of me, unlike they always praise about brother to relatives and friends. they neva once felt v happy of my doings. it's always like im going against them. when i say he loves brother more it's not becos im jealous but becos i have my reasons. every word coming out from his mouth is always brother. since brother is so nice, why am i here?

i know they love me but why do i always feel im goin against them? have i changed or am i really not a good daughter?


thanks you guys for coming and most importantly, THANK YOU TSY though u think alot but you neva think alot. (i dunno you get it or not) HAHA! thru good and bad times, I LOVE YOU (: i love my ladies too! oh yes, THANK YOU MELISSA AND KAIWEN FOR THE SUPPER TREAT! first time eating with kaiwen! hahahah!

BAVANI, GRACE, JOYCE, YC, WEATHERLY, MONICA and SHALINI,
thank you all for the surpirse! (:

and to the rest, i do not mention names, but just so you all know,
I APPRECIATE THEM, REALLY!

though im quite happy with all the celebration AND I'VE GOT SIMS 3 FROM MY CLASS MATE, the fact of me being 19 is still rather upset for me. i jus dunno why but i jus hate 19 onwards..

FURTHER MORE WADS MORE UPSET IS THAT,

1. bf say im growing horizontally.

2. megan fox is a tranny!!!!!! my idol lei!
my fren told me it was a metaphor that she is trying to do..
but HERE and HERE don't tell me so!
so is she a tranny or not?

3. im already 19..

oh yes, when it's with groupie people, PRANG CALLS ARE AWESOME!

lastly,
HAPPY BRITHDAY MAY 18 BABIES!
i watched STAR TREK yesterday and ANGELS & DEMON TODAY.
to me STAR TREK > ANGELS & DEMONS. why?

both of them are just as chim in the english but A&D was the worst. the words or the terms they use are all chimology. but all in all, both have them very very good suspence in the story telling. thus i like both storyline though A&D was rather tough to understand till the end.

i'll give a GO to watch either of them or even just go watch both of them!

and yes today i went TOY MUSEUM with darling too! a museum which you can explore the place in like just an hour. i won't say not worth it neither would i say worth it. prolly for me, i feel i just went there to have a look how toy in the past transform to today's toy. it's 15 BUCKS per adult but good news for students, WE HAVE IT HALF PRICE WITH OUR STUDENT CARD. so maybe take this chance and just have a little history in toys.

jus gonna upload a few pics i took in the museum.



in the evening i headed to usual aunt's hse for my early bday cake with my cousin whose brithday is a day earlier den mine!



so darling also told me that the theme for his commission dinner thingy is broadway and i did my research found these pretty dresses. BUT HOW TO FIND THEM IN SINGAPORE????


when i don't have the money, they have everything in stock.
when i have the money, everything is sold out!
sucky hell!



anybody sees this at other blogs and is in stock, PLEASE INFORM ME!
many many thanks (:
life's always playing a joke with humans aint it?

am i changing too much or im just adapting to life as it goes?
as compared to the past, i know it myself that i have changed.
but i don't know have i changed for good or for bad?

sometimes i really feel alone. like everyone else are monsters who are out to harm you real bad and want you to be dead real bad. yes, i even ever tot that my family and boyfriend are monsters.

as i grow older i don't find myself as happy as before.
not as carefree as before.
not easily satisfied as before.
not as daring as before.
i jus feel im not me anymore.

in life, you can neva know what lies ahead of you and all you can do is to RISK. yes RISK.

you risk to try to love.
you risk to try to study.
you risk to try to make frens.
you risk to try to work.
you risk for slmost everything and anything in life.

in mids of risking, you gain or/and you lose.
im afraid of losing, very extremely afraid.

im turning to my last teen soon and i hate it.
to hell with it and to hell with happy birthday.

seriously, i think im just a real shit ass pussy.



today is sucks though i have already hand up my first assignment.
why suck?

first, my thumb (shown above) is swollen, pain as well as itchy.

second, it's not only my thumb. i have alot of it on my legs.
i freaking dunno wad bit me exactly AND IT SUCKS! and im like monkey now.

thirdly, met up wid pat in the morning to swim supposingly but god up there was not happy with us that it started to cry HEAVILY. i was seriously so happy and excited to finally swim cos i got up this morning with very pretty sun but when i reach skool it rained. DAMN!

fourthly, having not to swim is bad enough yet MY BIG RED AUNT CAME! tat gave me a real real sharp pain of cramps. totally cant walk straight at all. howeva lucky enough, i could get a seat in train during the peak hours.

ya tats all. bye.

and one last thing, I FREAKING FREAKING CANNOT STAND IT WHEN PEOPLE SAY THEY ARE FAT WHEREBY THEY ARE NOT!
YES INCLUDING FRIENDS OF MINE!

edited: i havent see 2 Ps for vvvvvvvvvv long!
edited2: heheheheh... it's my PINKY. SORRY! AND I HAVENT SEEN F FOR EXTREMELY LONG!
you can do what you like,
and i have to go with the flow.
when i do what i like,
im going against you.

when you're free,
i have to be there.
when im free,
i still have to be there.

what you say is right.
what i say is not right.

so how much equality is there?
have i not given in enough that
i can't have things the way i want at times?
does everything has to go your way?

let's talk about being selfless eh?
don't agree? think carefully.

humans always have wild thought on their minds.

for me i very much wish to go anorexic or bulimic to be thin.
AS I SAID, WILD THOUGHTS!

jus by looking at THEM i really feel very turn offffffffffffff....

i seriously need motivations. I WANT TO BE THIN!

afterall, it was no big deal anyway.
bride of wars, great.
wild child (watched twice), still as great.
40 year old virgin, not really great ending but funny.
RAN 10 ROUNDS OF STADIUM TRACKS, AWESOME SATISFACTION!
many loves to pat, minglee and hermi for the company!

i need to slim down real bad. i need to cut of that spare tyre by end of this month. but i don't think i can ):

i really hope to be my best at your big day,
but im sorry if i have to disappoint you.
FINALLY CAUGHT 17 AGAIN!
LIKE FINALLY! with drusi babe.

UNTIL NOW I STILL CANT FORGET THE SCENE HE GOT OUT OF THE CAR PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!


he was in this dressing (above) and came out of the car wayyyyyyyyy much hotter than what you see above.


he was way hot tooooo when he owns the baddie!


right below is the conversation between drusi and me.
SHE COPIED MY NICK LA!
tell me you're hotter than zac efron widout lying says:
ask you something (drusi)
tell me you're hotter than zac efron widout lying says:
what if zac effron says he like you (drusi)
tell me you're hotter than zac efron widout lying says:
will you ditch jin for him (drusi)
tell me you're hotter than zac efron widout lying says:
I WILL DITCH JIN! (me)
tell me you're hotter than zac efron widout lying says:
hahahahaha (me)
tell me you're hotter than zac efron widout lying says:
WAH (drusi)
tell me you're hotter than zac efron widout lying says:
YOU (drusi)
tell me you're hotter than zac efron widout lying says:
SERIOUSLY (drusi)
tell me you're hotter than zac efron widout lying says:
hehehheheh (me)
tell me you're hotter than zac efron widout lying says:
I TELL JIN (drusi)

no need say, i'll blogged it on my own. HAHAHAHHAH!
but dada, you believe i will ma?
don't worry k? i still love you la =D hehehehehhhee!

i can't stop thinking that scene! seriously cant!

and pat babe, i dun want you liao, i want ZAC EFRON!

and and go watch Angus,Thongs And Perfect Snogging if you have not. a very good storyline on teaching us young girls to just be ourselves and have guys to respect girl of how they look like and learn to accept it. got hotties too ;)
wolverine, boyfriend, girlfriends, birthday parties.
they are all great!