Hello & welcome (:
Goodbye if it's not fun.

UPDATES ON MY WORK PROGRESS!

CP507S : GENETICALLY MODIFIED FOODS
(had my test today. and totally gonna screw it. overall is 50 marks, and a 14 marks qns was not answered. SO GREAT JOB LA...)

ST6202 : MEDIA LAW AND POLICY
(checked and doned long ago)

ST731Z : PRODUCTION FOR VISUAL EFFECTS
(still in the process, leaving one last job.)

ST732Z : 3D FOR VISUAL EFFECTS
(still in the process, leaving one last job too.)

ST733Z : DIGITAL COMPOSITING AND MATTING
(done my part. groupmate to complete it.)

ST734Z : DIGITAL MATTE PAINTING
(gonna complete tomorrow during lesson.)

ST7804 : Production Design
(DONE but left presentation on fri and to burn into CD!)

after this week, hopefully, i'll be all free already, then, comes holidays!

but sadly, right now im caught with the flu bug. keep rubbing and rubbing my nose that until now, it hurts badly and skins are peeling. disgusting....

friday is coming and its gonna be great cause it will be with GIRLFRIENDS and some guys!
saturday, darling's having confinement ):
but i have him on sun to mon to tue morning!
confuse, very confuse.

should i pay an amount of $500 or less, considering my poor financial, to go malaysia and get my FYP a higher percentage of getting an A. PLUS i'll be the only girl with other 4 guys and i have to extend my date for driving test.

or

should i not pay anything and join a group, not being the only girl in the group and can film just in singapore but the end result might not be as good, yet i can have time for my driving test?

i hate this part when it comes to group assignment.
hate it as much as you hate fats on your body!
fuck...
i believe i have been a good girl in doing consistent work. but the damn software hasnt been kind to me in helping me complete my work. instead, it gives me more trouble and problems.

I WANT TO DIE LE LA!

yet again another of like "when you things are going well, the next moment, problems pop up" is here again. i thought i can complete my assignments in time but problems pop up and drag meeeeeeeeeeee behind the dateline. cross my figure hard and tight.

I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE
PRODUCTION DESIGN!

daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, it feels good to be in your arms.

each time whenever i recieve updates from online shop blogs, i get damn excited. and i get even more excited when i see the piece i freaking like. but whenever the thought comes, it pulls my mood down. NO MONEY! ):

check them and tell me how not to love them!

nellyjoy
trooops
dressabelle
twist&kiss

work today by giving out flyers,
earned 25 bucks,
but i cant spend them.
i need them for rainy days ):

and oh yes. im looking for a female friend from SP (or even anyone who's willing but im comfortable with too) to be my partner in accomplishing my diet monday, to be my motivator!

every monday @ SP
10am-11am running
11am-12pm swimming

i noe, you'll start laughing at me and say "how can you do it man, you no determination and blahblahblah." that's why now im looking for that someone who's willing to go thru this shit with me and encourage me. WHO? PRETTY PLEASE!?!??!?!

one last thing, i wanna share a very sweet thing
from a very sweet friend!


any of you heard the movie "FELON" before?
IT IS SUPER NICE! (TO ME)
it's out this year but already over in the cinemas, if you have not catch it, GO AND FIND IT TO WATCH. very meaningful story. worth the watch.

this week kinda feel good cause i've been doing my work without slacking a day off! i feel damn happy cause most of the time when i get home, i'll on the tv, watch my fav drama, play the sims, watch the tv again, play the lappy, then go to sleep. so this time its a better me, doing my work.

this isn't a big deal but a little small progress i've done to myself (:

while im feeling good, darling hasn't got much luck lately. he's facing problems in that stupid shit camp and i feel useless for not being able to do anything to make him feel better but to only tell him "to be positive". hope this pharse do help a tiny bit, dada ):

before i started this post, i wanted to say alot. but right now, my mind is blank. so, to end off my post, i want to show my awful-yet-i-feel-i-did-a-not-bad-job art piece for last week and this week.


i already had my piece said.
but you still choose to do it your way, knowing it hurts still.
you know whenever you need a listening ear, i'll be there.
but just so you know,
in future if you need more advices, i won't be bother anymore.
cause you seems to tell me i've been too much a busybody.
im really sorry to have done things without telling you.
(not being sacarstic, but really sorry)
call me petty but yes, i am angry.
CP507S : GENETICALLY MODIFIED FOODS
(fucking having test on 26 nov in which i need to study for and in which i have not listen to the lectures! GREAT! seriously, screw gems la!)

ST6202 : MEDIA LAW AND POLICY
(checked and doned)

ST731Z : PRODUCTION FOR VISUAL EFFECTS
(still in the process)

ST732Z : 3D FOR VISUAL EFFECTS
(not started)

ST733Z : DIGITAL COMPOSITING AND MATTING
(checked and done)

ST734Z : DIGITAL MATTE PAINTING
(not started)

ST7804 : Production Design
(got resources but dunno how to do)

so all in all, this is what i have to do before the holidays starting from 6 december! pray for me while i pray for you!
Right now, it's a good idea for you to stick close to home and focus on one or two people who matter the most to you. Things around your home, like warmth and safety, are very appealing and satisfying for you. Also, there is a huge possibility for new levels of depth in your personal relationships. A recent drama, while frustrating, has made you a lot closer with someone, and this fledgling relationship could benefit from some more attention today.

friendster horoscope and i truly agree everything.

anyways, this weekend was great. awesomely great.
dinner and chats with my girlfriends on fri,
seeing love on sat as well as today,
and my desired dinner with my family.

i just hope for such weekends to happen everytime.

lastly, A BIG THANK YOU to love for tolerating me
regardless of the amount of stress you're facing right now.
Happy 18 months love!
we don't know what the future holds, but we can work things out to minimise the things that we won't want them to happen. so how much can i minimise the things i don't want them to happen?

i don't know.

i can't accept another blow but yet again, if it's for the better, i have no choice. funny that how much fate can play with you eh?

(click pause to stop my music playlist)

girlfriends and i have been thinking how to sing the song above, and so i went youtube and placed it here to share!

old songs just won't die, would they?

days aint being the usual days anymore.
i miss swimming.
i miss hanging out with groupie.
i miss being home where mum dad gorgor is at home.
i miss going dinner with them.
i miss going window shopping.
i miss lunch with bavani grace and joycelyn altogether.
i miss many many things
and most importantly, i miss the closeness we had.
LOVE LOVE IS BACK AND I CANNOT BE ANY HAPPIER!
oh great.

Slowing down might not feel comfortable right now, but it is the right thing to do. The intense energy you put out today shouldn't be directed at solving problems or putting out fires. Instead, direct it solely at reducing the level of commitment in your life! Put the brakes on a new business project, cool off an overwhelming new flirtation, or tell that pushy friend that you need some time to yourself -- whatever it takes to get yourself to a brand new level of boredom.

brought to you by friendster horoscope.
this gonna sound damn unglam but what i wanna say i feel damn terrible for holding back my shit since morning till evening jus now. then finally shitted out. FEEL DAMN SHIOK. VERY VERY SHIOK!

the result of not being firm could result in very big responsiblities and hatred. im not gonna apologise cause i dun feel guilty at all. rather, i choose to be selfish and not help anything in which im prepared for hatred to come. be fake to me, smile to me, but just don't expect me to be guilty and do anything out of it. from the start i was promised but in the end im doing what im not promised. so now, i'll just do WHAT I THINK I SHOULD DO and when things are over, i'll be done with. SERIOUSLY, BECAUSE OF SAVING THE TROUBLE OF PAPER WORK AND MY LAZINESS, IM STAYING AND DO ONLY WHAT I WANNA DO TILL MY TIME IS UP.

YES KELLYN IS FUCKING IRRESPONSIBLE LOSER.

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so let me teach you how to read the above paragraph.
get urself stressed, angry, and feel like shit of urself.
then, start making angry faces and noises.
and that's gonna be how u read it.

and i watched sex and the city and got this:

My thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved
I can live only wholly with you or not at all -
Be calm my life, my all. Only by calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to
live together. Oh continue to love me, never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
Ever thine
Ever mine
Ever ours

im just feeling ahsihansnlngkvjdnbszlhuhrsn to be excited or happy for anything.
seriously, honeymood is not there.
but i still really need love back.
2 more days.
my legs are aching very much due to dancing-the-whole-nite and not-working-since school starts!

just last nite i went to work the dinner shift at vivo's branch. i was the runner and food orders kept coming in and in and in. so i gotta run and run and run. NOW MY LEGS ARE ACHING! but i feel good. another form of excersie since im so lazy to go excersie myself. hehehehehhee..

AND ON FRIDAY NITE, i went to a damn budget clubbing event which is held in SP. ahhaha! yeap, SP DANCE @ MOBERLY by DJ club. and mentioned before one of the DJs is my friend, MR D for DHANISH. so dance dance dance non-stop and tat explains my aching legs too.

and BROTHER D! we all enjoyed ourselves very much! (:



oh well... it's gonna be another busy week for the coming week as i'll be having alot of reshoot to go on. and by the time when everything has completed, i'll know that my darling boy is back from field camp!

i miss love, alot ):


genuis not? hahahahahahh!
actually not at all a genuis. anyone can do this with photoshop! so today instead of digital painting, i was doing this extracting and paste artwork. damn fun! but eyes damn tiring, keep staring at the screen. im loving every thursdays now cause the fun we have as a class is awesome, even our art lecturer is joining the fun!

another day to brighten my mood.
tomorrow is gonna be another great day (i hope)
will be attending skool's DJ club disco party and proudly having MR DHANISH as the DJ! (: afterwhich might be meeting the friday night clique for drinking.

this is soooo coooooooooool!

some of us r turning to very broke kids though.



was digging out all the old pictures during secondary school on tue. looking back at them made me laugh silly and missing the old times very much.

WHEN I HAVE THE MOOD, i'll share the pics with you all. if not, tune to siying's or melissa's blog. HOHO!
seriously, i have this thought of which any car could just BANG and off im to heaven, or maybe i not careful fall down AND BANG im off to heaven, or or or maybe when i have the courage to actually climb to the highest building and BANG i'll be on the head of the newspaper that reads "18 YEAR OLD GIRL DIED FROM 30 STORY BUILDING".

yet again these are "ONLY IF".

you always hear people being emo, being lonely, having no one to talk to, suffering from depression, thinking that everyone is against them. but have you experience it before personally? the feeling is no good.

mum works.
brother works.
boyfriend, army.
friends, how much are they willing to listen?
dad, im speechless.

the above pictures shows what i have been doing for the whole of today. every monday would be my acting class if you still don't know. so today we had this live filming and acting in a classroom. so we act, our lecturer at the same time teaches us how to act and direct. very fun but kinda hard to get into a character who is not you at all. thumbs up for those actors/actresses in MEDIACORP and of course HOLLYWOOD. so ya la, this is my monday for this week.

for the past weekend as usual, spent it with darling boy. this time stayed over at his place for the next weekend i cant see him. right now, i guess he is in the mids of tekong jungle leading his men which i really hope they'll all listen to his instructions, or else his ass will be screwed big time by his head officer. yet another 10 days of field camp. no calls, no voice, no life. blah..

just now was watching this 8pm show on ch8. a show where 2 host and a group of volunteers goes to a very poor family's home to help their house to have a makeover.

and in this epsiode, the owner of the house who is an old woman at the age of 60+ is still taking care of her 30+ years old son who is suffering from some kind of metal illness that makes him a violent person at anytime and throw thantrums. hence she has to take care of her son and work low paid jobs to make ends meet which gives her no time to clean the house. the house was total dirty and filled with moulds, rusty utensils and wadeva you cant see in your own house. her son's violence have broked alot of the furnitures in the house too.

the main thing i wanna say is that after seeing all this i should feel fucking contented with my freaking good life and stuffs. but, but, sadly, im still not contented with life. i think im just a fucking loser living on this earth occupying space for those unfortunate people to live a better life. what has happen to the society? what is really happening? what has happen to living life to the fullest and being carefree? hell fuck with those idiots bad guys who spoil the society. seriously.

"miss ya alot.. A lot more for the next 10 days."
little parts of the sms that keep me going for the next 10 days.
but how to go on for another 7-8 more months?
i never hate a lecturer in school before but not until now.

an email i sent to my lecturer with the subject: "ASSIGNMENT SUBMISSION" and content with me sounding very poor thing:

"LECT JENNIFER!
i tried for hours on the work, like 7pm to 12am, AND I STILL CANT WORK IT. The software is the basic 3D but not user-friendly! ): and so, i have to apologise for handing in only part of the work which i can manage to get it done.
kellyn"

her reply with subject: "Re: WARNING: Inappropriate e-mail message‏", content:

"don't blame it on the software when you are not familiar with it. it is one of the most friendly entry level 3D software created. if you have tried, try harder, you use one year to learn maya, how do you expect yourself to grasp a software in a few hours although many people will get it for this software. have you go watch the videos i told you to watch? seriously you should. please complete your model and upload to the forum, we will re-look at th model in the lesson. above that, i need to track your GP with timestamp. btw, you don't have to type in all caps.
Regards.
Jennifer Ang"

i may be too sensitive and take it too hard on the email but was i being very rude in my email that she replied me this way? i really don't know man. my main point here is that, she's the only lecturer that replys me like that. call me sensitive, fragile or anything but i just didn't like her reply which makes me don't like her!

anyway here's my weekly dose of ownself-draw-digital-art!