Hello & welcome (:
Goodbye if it's not fun.

i simply thank EVERYONE who has been by my side supporting me and brightening up my day. even the slightest cheer up or take care really made me felt better. seriously. many many thanks.

to my dearest 3 ladies; bavani, grace & joycelyn who actually been there for me during lessons, breaks and everything in school to kill my daydreaming times, thanks alot. not forgetting the class boys and SMIT peeps (:

as for my dearest girlfriends, sanyo, weiping, minxiang & lovely fren(guess who!), thanks loads too. pearlyn told me this: "Cheer up girl, your roller coaster ride is just making its way down right now and it'll go up again sooner or later. it takes time, just tighten your seat belt now, dont fall off." darling, this is a great encouragement for me, really. thanks (:

now my mind is in a better state to blog, i jus wanna rant all my feelings over here.

maybe many of you will be commenting that im such a loser and only knows how to whine, cry and get attention. but all i can say it's that i had him and he was my best. so much so that i ever thought of going through old age and till the end with him. i swear this is no kiddy thoughts, just some real life thought that he's gonna be the one.

he might be the noisy-est ass that i've ever met but he's the one who can push me up. he took all my nonsense and went through with me for 11 mths (its a long period for me). he's the one who can take all my childish acts and go along with me. he could go along with me in debating childish topics about anything and everything. he teaches me alot of knowledgeable things he learnt from tv, internet, wadeva. he shares with me his favourite DEVIL MAY CRY game, how much he's in love with the main characters, esp the fingerings/models he bought which cost bomb. he loves to repeat acts by JEFF DUNMAN(go search if u dunno who). he loves watching discovery channel; MAN VS WILD, MYTH BUSTER and many more. he loves anything about fighting and admires CHUCK NORRIS(go figure who). he loves watching porn(i dun watch with him). he talks to me like nobody's business. he give me the attention i needed. he couldn't be the best romantic guy like those in dramas but he is the best lover to love me. HE IS THE BEST I COULD EVER ASK FOR and i felt special around him.

with all that said, i just couldn't accept the fact that i have lost him at the moment. i just need time to get through all this. so please forgive me, if any point in time i just break down and cry. its just my way to ease the pain.

pardon me please, really. it will be greatly appreciated.