Hello & welcome (:
Goodbye if it's not fun.

the post below might be offensive.
so don't start cursing me cos its my point of view
whereby all of you have already voice out yours.

there's too much in this world that makes me very very very very confused.
espeically very confused with human being, that includes myself of course.


to start on, i'll start to talk about myself.
(yes, myself and sorry if that makes you go "YOU? boring lah.")
alrite, my myself and i. i have loads of things i want in life.
YET, yet, im not working towards them.
i don't like to commit YET i want to be useful and help out.
there are just so many factors here and there which makes me don't want to commit.


EG1: im not confident that i'll do a good job.
EG2: im afraid of critisim behind me.
EG3: i can think but not smart.
EG3: joining another interest group (or know as CCA)
if i join another, it would occupy my late evenings till night of a day or even weekends.
FURTHERMORE, my school work sucks and i really needa ALOT ALOT ALOT of concentration.

i know myself, i get distracted easily. SO, by having another thing to commit, i'll flunk my studies. and i really need weekends to work CAUSE IM SERIOUSLY HAVING A VERY BAD CASH FLOW. AND YES I KNOW, many of you will start saying, "THEN START WORKING ON YOUR TIME MANAGEMENT AND PLAN PROPERLY LAH!"


yes yes i know, time management. but people, i know me (althought sometimes i don't really know who i am. NOW SEE THAT'S WHAT IM TRYING TO SAY, IM CONFUSED OF MYSELF.)

probably in short, i can say that the word "BUT" is making me confused about myself. im the type who really really really tooooooooo stubborn to make a change out of myself. that's my bad i know. oh yes yes yes i suddenly think of the right word to use on me; CONTRIDICTION. i have this bad habit of contridicting myself and make myself confused.


alright, enough of myself. now onto humans!

thru this i-thought-fun-at-first-camp, i've seen alot of stuffs.
too much of a unpleasant stuffs in actual fact.
first, humans love to go around the bush.
second, humans love putting on masks and then takes it off behind you and start taking out the damn ducking huge knife and STAB!
third, humans love to hide their feeling, anger, hatred, happiness and yadah yadah.
fourth, humans love to ASSUME!
fifth to like many many more, too many to name them all of them at once now. but im sure u're getting the rough idea. if no, im sorry, my way of writing is really bad. my bad.


ANYWAYS, back to point. i've been seeing things and reading stuffs from some of us from the camp. i've seen hurtful blog posts, unfair blog posts, many many things are said whereby the actual person didnt actually appear at the scene and START MAKING ASSUMPTIONS!


i mean really lah, what's with humans now? we tend to do things without knowing its black and white. CANT WE ALL JUST LEAVE WITH HORMANY PEACE AND EQUALITY? REMEMBER OUR SINGAPORE PLEGE?