Hello & welcome (:
Goodbye if it's not fun.

the above pictures shows what i have been doing for the whole of today. every monday would be my acting class if you still don't know. so today we had this live filming and acting in a classroom. so we act, our lecturer at the same time teaches us how to act and direct. very fun but kinda hard to get into a character who is not you at all. thumbs up for those actors/actresses in MEDIACORP and of course HOLLYWOOD. so ya la, this is my monday for this week.

for the past weekend as usual, spent it with darling boy. this time stayed over at his place for the next weekend i cant see him. right now, i guess he is in the mids of tekong jungle leading his men which i really hope they'll all listen to his instructions, or else his ass will be screwed big time by his head officer. yet another 10 days of field camp. no calls, no voice, no life. blah..

just now was watching this 8pm show on ch8. a show where 2 host and a group of volunteers goes to a very poor family's home to help their house to have a makeover.

and in this epsiode, the owner of the house who is an old woman at the age of 60+ is still taking care of her 30+ years old son who is suffering from some kind of metal illness that makes him a violent person at anytime and throw thantrums. hence she has to take care of her son and work low paid jobs to make ends meet which gives her no time to clean the house. the house was total dirty and filled with moulds, rusty utensils and wadeva you cant see in your own house. her son's violence have broked alot of the furnitures in the house too.

the main thing i wanna say is that after seeing all this i should feel fucking contented with my freaking good life and stuffs. but, but, sadly, im still not contented with life. i think im just a fucking loser living on this earth occupying space for those unfortunate people to live a better life. what has happen to the society? what is really happening? what has happen to living life to the fullest and being carefree? hell fuck with those idiots bad guys who spoil the society. seriously.

"miss ya alot.. A lot more for the next 10 days."
little parts of the sms that keep me going for the next 10 days.
but how to go on for another 7-8 more months?