yet as stubborn as your split ends.
Thursday, May 14, 2009, 12:16 AM
life's always playing a joke with humans aint it?
am i changing too much or im just adapting to life as it goes?
as compared to the past, i know it myself that i have changed.
but i don't know have i changed for good or for bad?
sometimes i really feel alone. like everyone else are monsters who are out to harm you real bad and want you to be dead real bad. yes, i even ever tot that my family and boyfriend are monsters.
as i grow older i don't find myself as happy as before.
not as carefree as before.
not easily satisfied as before.
not as daring as before.
i jus feel im not me anymore.
in life, you can neva know what lies ahead of you and all you can do is to RISK. yes RISK.
you risk to try to love.
you risk to try to study.
you risk to try to make frens.
you risk to try to work.
you risk for slmost everything and anything in life.
in mids of risking, you gain or/and you lose.
im afraid of losing, very extremely afraid.
im turning to my last teen soon and i hate it.
to hell with it and to hell with happy birthday.
seriously, i think im just a real shit ass pussy.
bye (:
